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These are the days of our lives

by jo1810 @ Tuesday, 27. Mar, 2007 – 00:35:26

I don't want Hannah to go away. Things shouldn't have to change. Today really hit home that she's leaving, like actually leaving. Earlier we were sat on the stairs in Penfold and just looked at each other. I nearly cried. We know what the other means when we say stuff like; "I think it should look like a montage, but not like a montage." and know exactly what that means. All we seem to do at the moment is talk about the old times. She's always been there, I don't know how to deal with her not being there. From year 7 I had never actually been happy. I mean I'd been happily coasting through friends, some good and some bad, but year 9 changed me. Hannah changed me. It wasn't scary actually being me, I owe a lot to her and I don't even think she knows it. It's funny to think that I would sometimes feel jealous of the history Linzi shared with other friends, thinking that my friendship with her was somewhat inadequate considering our "good old times" were probably like a year previous heh insecurities suck. But why did I feel the need to want something that I already have an abundance of? I've had so many great times with Hannah, times that are so trivial and silly that it just makes them more precious. I treasure each memory I have now, be it spending an hour in the school gym with nothing but a mat and still having the most fun, or sitting next to her when we showed our Year 11 Leavers DVD for the first time, or even the very first time I stayed round her house and we played the Bad Girls drinking game with Bucks Fizz! Everything seems so much more important to remember and cling onto recently. It is the subtle desperation of me clutching to the memories before I lose a person who is practically my family. She knows me better than my own family, that's for sure. I shall miss her more than I would miss my own family.
I never know what courses may crop up while doing my foundation year, Edge Hill might not be the best option. I might not end up near Hannah for years. Of course I'll visit but it's not the same. Batman knows what state we will all be in at our Last Supper, it's not worth thinking about; I've cried too much already. It's a possibility that Hannah will be halfway up the country and Linzi will be in Italy I think it unfair that the precious people go far away...

...maybe I smell funny [teehee]

"Where to Miss?"

by jo1810 @ Sunday, 25. Mar, 2007 – 21:23:35

"To the Stars"

I started watching Titanic again. Ah Kate Winslet, the women who never ages! I say that I started it, I mean I watched it from when Jack first sees Rose on the deck above. I'm not entirely sure that I like the 'flying' bit reminding me of Nat. When the four of us went to Girls and Boys and we ended up doing that thing that we tend to do when there's alcohol and the other person, we shared a Jack and Rose style backwards leaning kiss. Good kiss hehe but it don't think I can watch that bit now without having flashes of me and Nat *rolls eyes* it's the same with 'Walk This Way', why did we kiss so much hah there's like an hour of songs that trigger the flashes! Anyway, naked Winslet pushes anything and everything instantly out of my brain so no harm done really.

My parents are sort of ok with me going travelling after UCCA which is brilliant. They even said that they wouldn't mind partly helping financially with it which is superly brilliant! I'm guessing that it relies on getting ok grades in A Levels then doing well at UCCA; the UCCA thing won't be a problem but my A Levels could be a mixed bag considering the U in my critical research. But I'll think about that when it comes around, best to get excited about travelling that isn't happening for over a year! EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! [< that's the excited noise]

On Friday Linzi bought Pan's Labyrinth and holy schmoly is that an awesome film! Fantasy is just better than any genre, FACT! It has it's own rules and, even though fantasy recycles itself, it always seems original. Only in fantasy could you say that werewolf blood is strong enough to kill a vampire but only if consumed on the night of a full moon, and if challenged just reply with 'Dem's dah rules!' and no one can argue. [That was totally made up mythology heh I don't want to make a mutiny among my guests [and yes that was a R+J quote a-thank-you] so I had to clarify ] I like fantasy, and I make it my goal to put together a list of everything I like about the genre and make a film/series with it all included. It's quite a hefty goal but there's no point meandering through life without an unreachable aspiration hehe it's nearly as distant as mine and Hannah's show!

I'm just putting off my media essay even longer now. I'm clearly not going to do anything tonight, so I'll have to get someone to tell Miss Page I'm sick and then do it tomorrow night and check out how the others set it out. I shouldn't be allowed to do well, I really do nothing at all...hmm perhaps why I don't do well!

I think I'm going to get to sleep with the quote "She's made of iron, Sir, but I assure you she can." it always happens when I watch this film! I love that guys accent, saying that line in particular

"By the pricking of my thumbs...

by jo1810 @ Thursday, 22. Mar, 2007 – 21:41:23

...Something wicked this way comes"

After being visited by my oh-so-secret stalker I felt it wise to blog. I can't be bothered as it's been to long since my last one to update properly. Where to begin...

Last week Hannah had a gathering for Comic Relief; it started as a gathering for the whole gang, but as the gang dropped like flies it was Hannah, Bec, Saz, Snorris and myself who gathered. It was groovy. The highlight of my evening was either accusing Snorris of saying bad things about the Africans or the Catherine Tate sketch with The Tennant, most probably the latter! Note to self: you left the rum at Hannah's house.

On Saturday me, Hannah and Bec met Nat in Canterbury and we went to Girls and Boys, or Studio for those super cool trendy people! The first person I saw, or should I say grabbed me, was Nicki Milton - Dan's best friend. I hope she didn't see too much of the evening, or what she did she she's forgotten due to drinkies because I want to be able to actually go to work without what I do with girls being a topic of conversation with Dan. This place had vodka slush puppies! That is reason enough to go anywhere! It goes without saying that stuff happened between me and Nat, it was a lot of fun we both finished drinking pretty early, mainly due to the fact that we were getting off with each other after that till we left! We were being very inappropriate for being in public after about an hour; hands were in naughty places :O So many songs remind me of us kissing and stuff now, kinda random songs too! Anywho, we went outside to ring Hannah and Bec because we'd lost them hehe we bumped into them a bit earlier but then kissing became distracting! We sat on a wall outside all in each others arms/laps and what-not, it was so comfortable to be with her like that and it made me wonder why I hadn't seen her for over 6 months. It's so much easier now that her and Hannah are friends again, I can't say how good it felt for it to be the four of us hanging out together again, just like it was on results day in Yr 11 So, we got a taxi back to Nat's place and Hannah and Bec went upstairs to the double bed, naturally, so me and Nat ended up sharing a sofa heh not even a single bed, a sofa! I'm not quite sure how I didn't fall off, it was the close proximity I guess nothing more happened, sleep came first! I went to work still a little drunk; the best way to work I feel!

I went to London to see King of Hearts. It was better than I expected, and I expected it to be good! The year 12s were hilarious without knowing it; a 10 minute conversation about onion rings proves my point! A stuck with Pearl, Sam and Amy pretty much. Pearl is a lot cooler than I thought, and we have mucho Moulin Rouge business in common. Sam is funnier than I knew too, an actual nice guy - bless him!

I made cheesy mashed potato balls tonight they were a bit of an experiment but they were fun, and yummy! They had ham and sweetcorn in too mmmmm!

I've borrowed Lost Season 2 from Clare and I've watched the 1st disc so far. Slowly but surely I will catch up and then be angry that I don't have season 3! I want to get to Claire's episode NOW! I love Claire - and Clare also - I want to see more of her dammit!

Hopefully this will suffice as an adequate blog entry. I don't want my stalker to resort to any mad-cap measures of punishment!

O brave new world, That has such people in't!

by jo1810 @ Wednesday, 07. Mar, 2007 – 22:58:40

'Tis a shame that the people in't are somewhat of a disappointment. I am kidding, people aren't rubbish really

"Friends Will Be Friends - Queen"

Today I had double drama which consisted of talking about Macbeth for 2 hours. I like being knowledgable about quotes, I don't feel confident enough to say them out loud but I know that I know and that's enough you know hehe I was practically mouthing my quotes that I found for the different themes when Mr Roy asked me. Is it too nerdy that instead of just finding three I found six or seven? I enjoy Shakespeare, it's just so much more elegant than the pretend English spoken now. More people should speak in ye olde english. I often get R+J quotes stuck in my head for days. I wish I knew more Shakespeare plays as well as I know Romeo and Juliet, I should purchase them; perhaps Twelth Night shall be my next investment [hmm 'cause I don't already have a pile of books as tall as your average midget to read first!]

"My Best Friend - Weezer"

I went to see The Tempest at the Novello Theatre today too. It had Patrick Stewart playing Prospero, that's more than adequate reason to see it! It was an English Lit trip but I managed to worm my thesbian [yes THESbian] self onto the trip regardless! On the coach trip there me and Linz played a wee game of drawing characters in 30 seconds. On the way home we got to talking about childhood things, things that we don't know about each other, it was pleasant. We did get onto her who we call Bell, a girl who is no more than an whoring harpy [she is an affront to all the whoring harpies out there too!] I base this opinion from what I have heard, but I'm sure my brief description will suffice. Girls are mean, calculating and sly. I was going to go on about this but meeh I'm in an odd mood. [The kind of mood that makes me put Charlie's Angels on in the background. Who the hell does that?! I think it's due the rekindling of an old thing for Drew Barrymore after seeing the trailers for Music and Lyrics. Heh I think it's funny when old celebrity 'crushes', even when sometimes I didn't even realise that I fancied these women due to the whole uncertainty of sexuality deal, come rushing back; like the Winslet. I think I used to fancy Drew Barrymore 'cause in Charlie's Angels shes the 'tomboy-ish one' of the three, and she is pretty fit too and her name's Dylan in it as well, now that's just plain cool!]

"Changes - David Bowie"

I've been thinking about friends that have come and gone since I've got in, continuing from conversations me and Linzi had on the way home [we had some good chat-age ] I was thinking about how much me and Meg have drifted apart, and how much she's changed since leaving 6th Form. I guess I've changed too but we used to still be close all through school, and especially towards the end of GCSEs. I doubt we will ever be close friends again but it would be nice to think that even though we wouldn't have anything in common now apart from years of history to reminisce about, that we could still keep in contact considering that I'm going to be around here for another year. Hark at me rambling again hehe. I've started feeling bad about losing contact with Nina, my primary school "best friend" [even though Meg was my oldest and longest friend, Nina was always my other half in primary school]. She moved away before starting secondary school to Norfolk because her Dad got a better job up there. We managed to keep in contact for a few years, I still have letters from her that I've kept 'cause I keep everything heh, but after a while there were fewer letters, no phone calls and then even the emails stopped. It was no ones fault, it's just what distance does to young friendships I guess. I'm glad to be rid of lower school friends, suffice to say that I won't be dwelling on how they're getting on in life; babies, beauty school and Borstal no doubt I can't belive how much I've changed, or how much of a follower I was in younger years. I think that because I was popular in primary school with everyone, the fact that there were people 'more liked' than me was a shock in many ways, so I must have gravitated to the 'cool' people in the class to be part of the 'cool gang' again. It was so much like Girl World in that group; having to be careful about what you say incase it wasn't thought of as 'cool'. It did get to the stage where I had to stop being around these people who were making me miserable for something trivial like not having a boyfriend, or the fact that Sara claimed to fancy me. Getting out of that group is harder than you'd imagine, especially when you think of their kind of group loyalty thing; got beef with one of us, got beef with all of us. Heh it's all well and good saying that, but when no one in the group really knows each other that well because they're only friends due to their 'image', no one would really do anything to protect each other apart from shout at people when the ratio was 6:1 or something well hard like that. But I managed to faze myself out of that group and thank the good lord that I did! I am living proof that you can move on haha god them girls are a joke now! I'm glad I went to Megan's form room at breaks and lunches 'cause that is how I got talking to Hannah, who lent me her Bad Girls DVDs, and let's just say the rest is histoire.

*This is not the end of this venting, but I need to get off the computer before my parents shout at me once again. I am super glad they are home(!)*

I'm on another planet with you.

by jo1810 @ Sunday, 04. Mar, 2007 – 20:38:04

Such a while since my last blog; I've been a social butterfly...perhaps not heh. Well, on Snoz's 18th birthday [Thursday 22nd Feb] lots of us went out to 'Spoons and then on to Dukes, as they were close to getting kicked out of 'Spoons heehee. It was a tispy night, not incredibly wild or anything but a nice night all the same. Had a good long chat with Nikki, Haley, Alice and Linzi. Not sure what it was all about but it was a bonding conversation.

We arranged to go out the next night so me and Linz met them in 'Spoons. We had the best drink ever, FACT! It was pear cider; it is so much more spectacular than it sounds! We moseyed [sp] on to Chambers where the drinks were more expensive and the music that night was nicht good. I was mixing drinks a-plenty heh silly me. We went back to Alice's crib where there was more wine, god why more wine!? I felt vommy and when I didn't vom Am'e gave us a lift back to mine, where I spewed [teehee SPEW] I left a vomit-line on the carpet then I made it to the toilet haha Linzi was already upstairs and sleeping! The puking really cleared my head [not to mention my stomach] and so I was able to clear up the vomit-line perfectly and in morning you could never have told that there had once been the remanence of Subway vomit!

That night was Nat's 18th Birthday bash. It was a strict dress code; suits and dresses. Needless to say not myself, Hannah or Bec was up for wearing a dress so we shirt and tie and trilby-ed it hehe Hannah wore a black and white tie like her Vans and her trilby, Bec wore a red tie and a red trilby to match and I wore a wine red cravat type thing with my waistcoat and my grey trilby. We looked smooth, and not unlike a group of some sort we suggested Charlie's Angles or D.E.B.S haha we looked dashing heh. When we arrived we got many dirty looks from girls in dresses and many confused looks from older generations. It was very much the game of 'Spot the Lesbian' 'cause across the room was Nat's ex Grace and her "friend" [their relationship was never disclosed] who were both in suits the night was groovy; me and Bec came up with the 'Aye up' game [basically put the phrase 'aye up, aye up' into every song possible!], watching Hannah get progressivly smashed ["You two are my fravourite peole." Emphasis on the 'r' in favourite hehe], busting stupid moves, finally giving into the alcohol and so on. After downing two vodka and cokes I was sufficiently hyper to take my embarrasing rave moves up a notch haha I ended up dancing with Nat more and more. Her Mum's Mother-in-Law [hang on, that just means her Nan hehe] was disgusted or something with Hannah and Bec's dancing [she doesn't know about Nat's orientation obviously!] I'm guessing this was until my dancing with Nat turned in to kissing her! I'm not going to blog about guilt because I'm over it and so it's gone hehe so yeah kissing was fun as always, not after more 'cause fun is all I want Can you hear Rufus singing? I know you can! It was Hannah's turn to throw up this night, both outside the club and at the side of the road! I'm so glad it was freezing and raining, that made it super special for me and Bec Just had a very bizzare flashback of the night: me and Nat dancing suggestively [haha suggestively! Understatement much!] and then joining dancing with Hannah and Bec :S that is some weird 4 person mix that is just bizzare, BIZ-ZARE!

It was moving day on Sunday; my parents had gone on holiday to Spain [where else?!] so Linzi lived with me for the week. Best week ever it was a good way to test the living together waters, even though it's looking more and more shit on the Canterbury house front, and the water feels fine for sailing! It was just so much fun. We didn't even do anything in particular, haha I guess that's the sign of good company. Linzi made a list of everything we did each day and it's the plainest list you could ever imagine but I had a smashing time! It mainly consisted of beige food [or anything on that colour pallette], tea, marmite, America's Next Top Model and films [and Firefly, which I sucessfully got Linzi hooked on. I knew she'd love it, yay for me!] Friday was funny; I finished a couple of hours before Linz so I got home and started the washing and stuff like a proper housewife! I was just like my Mum hehe it's scary, I was doing the ironing, I was annoyed at having to do ironing and I was watching the Tyra Banks Show while doing it haha I was just my Mum! I had a cup of tea ready for ma man [Linzi] when she got in from a hard days single period of English! It feels weird without her now, I was expecting to watch some more episodes of Firefly or something instead I'm doing nothing on my own hehe I badly want to move out next year, pfft next year?! I want to move out now! I might see how much more I earn a month if I work all day Saturday and Sunday and do an evening shift or something, maybe even a Tuesday afternoon. Anything to boost my chances of MOVING OUT!

It's starting to scare me how many of mine and Linzi's conversations end with "people are rubbish!" even if they are rubbish I'm worried that people are irritating me too easily. Linzi is quite possibly the most unrubbish person I know, I'm glad I get to spend another year of my life with her, I'm practically giddy about the idea haha Don't get me wrong, I won't know what to do without Hannah, but I'm lucky enough to have a group of best friends including two super best friends, at least one's sticking around for another year could I sound more like a child *rolls eyes* I'm rambling now.

Due to my rambly nature I will have to round up what I wanted to say briefly. Saturday we both had the day off work to go to the live Pottercast [like podcasts but Potter focused] it was great to be in a room of Harry Potter geeks who are just such geeks it's weird hearing other people actually talk about it with as much excitement, passion and length as me and Linzi do. 'Cause it's usually just us two, give or take a couple of people, who talk about it in detail it was so special to be in a room where not one person would snigger or glance smirkingly across to someone because you were cracking silly Death Eater or Sirius jokes or that you're wearing your own home-made tshirt, in that room that gives you man points Geeks rule Ok!